idiocyncracy

new year new hope new resolutions.


just a thought,
sometimes.. the feelings you have for many old frens that you have.. are plainly just redundant...
ive come to learn that somehow.. people may not place the same value on you as you hve on them....
they come and go and make empty promises.. and funny thing is ..i did not even compel them to do so..they come to me and tell me so..
il rather they dun make the promises at all.. cuz that will at least save me the heartache..
and ive come to learn that there is no need to hold onto the people who dun really care.. rather...just be happy that you have known them and they have played a happy part in your life..
whatever comes..let it come.. whatever that goes..let it go..
just treasure the moments you have with that fren
for whichever new people you meet...
give them care and help whoever who needs help.. that alone is good enuff...

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this year may il be 22..
i have so many goals and aspirations..
so much to work upon..
so many big dreams..
my only problem and obstacle is my impatience..
so many things to look forward to...
so much of the world to absorb and explore..
one day i wana work in new york..
the things that i wanna do may be impossible..
but even if it breaks me il do it.
for life is not worth living if you dun try..




i wun blog anymore.. i have thought of deleting it.. but i decided to leave it so i can come back someday and laugh at the silly things i wrote ..lol

beholden to nothing and no one...
il go full speed ahead towards the things i want...

cheers all
:)

this is really funny!!!

''Because it's easier than doing the 500 sit-ups a day it would take to undo the years of beer and nachos that have turned our once rigid six-packs into distended down pillows. Men aren't used to our physical attributes (or lack thereof) being readily discernible: We can spot 36Ds at 50 paces, yet our privates are safely stowed in our chinos, our Olive Oyl biceps shrouded in our sleeves. A pudgy stomach is tougher to hide. We could drink less and work out more often, but inhaling deeply and pretending we're buff is much more efficient.''

27th... had my foodie outing with pei pei- the undisputed chairman of gourmet club. im the undisputed ceo of gourmet club. as well as guest of honour anne tan.
we went into the heartlands of singapore.. ang mo kio! the huge s11 kopitiam. we had a two plates of 5 bucks delicious orjian.. penang laksa..one huge mutton murtabak.. one rojak and some desserts yummy yummy! plenty of laughs and plenty of dumb photos taken.. anne's bf and pei's sis joined us later and more laughs!


and then halfway thru i had a stomachache.. then i went over to jubilee and the toilets are.. horror upon horrors,locked!and i caught this security guard locking the mens..and he went down the escalator.. so i followed him..and i said ''excuse.. i needed to go to the toilet and i was wondering if you have the keys to the toilet.'' he said:'' WHO ARE YOU?'' (what a fucking dumb irrelevant qn) . taken aback, i said '' you dun noe me.. im just a passerby wanting to use the toilet'' (i almost wanna shoot a smart aleck ans..hi im president nathan and i command you to unlock the toilet door!) and then he just retorted me rudely and pointed in the direction of s11.. i refuse to give up the hunt for a proper toilet so i went to four seasons shopping mall..i asked this salegirl if she can give me the directions of a toilet in the mall and then this salesgirl pointed to the direction of s11. i almost fainted.. shit happens.


29th.. i met a long time no see fren..
her name is nurul... lol we went to this turkish cafe at far east.. anatoila.... i had beef wrap.. beefylicious.. and they had the funny teasing ice cream man there...
and then we went to starbucks near forum and had a good talk there..
i had toffeenut latte.. im not a great fan of lattes but it was a nice light airy drink perfect for long talks.. the evening was sweet and cool and windy.. i looked ard me and i see this group of restless teens with punk rock style and their ringleader had her leg propped up again a chair with a cigarette in hand, chin jutted up and all.. i tot they looked ridiculous. if you wanna be bad. dun look just. be. lol

after that it was walking again and we settled down at orange julius.. had a muscle peach. din feel like ive gained muscles after drinking it.. worse still.. it tastes like pineapple.

hm.. i heard alotta horrifying bgr true life experiences lately and im wondering... issit all worth it?

30th i met peiyuan..
we went to bishan to eat.. this certain cafe SUX BIG TIME. im never gg back there again!
the food was bad and the service was even worse.
everyone had to cut their own bread.. and there were a chain of tiny bad events..
all ard us.. the waitress was refilling the glasses of other ppl so close to us.. and totally ignored us, the food arrived and still no water.. i asked for some.. the waitress poured and SPILLED ON THE TABLE and my frens leg.. after a long pause she said a soft sorry and quickly moved away. noone came and wiped the table. how horrible. my fren had beef linguine. tastes like char siew. hence char siew mee. i had beef burger. beef had sauce that tastes suspiciously like char siew sauce. hence char siew bun. the bread was bad too. im never ever gg back there again.

went to have a tea at ya kun.. after that an ice cream at macs.. and we sat and talked for a very long time.. bumped in this girl i din like but we said hi. then i bumped into my manager of ocbc and she still looks as hot as ever despite being married and having kids and all.. damn beautiful she is!


31st- i went to collect my lost earring..
it was found! this is a case of rare honesty in sporeans.i lost a diamond earring in the cheers near national library a month ago.. i was rather distressed as it has great value.. sentimental value as well economic value.. so i searched thoroughly for it.. and this sales officer helped me.. she was really helpful..but the supervisor was rather irritated for i seemed to be disrupting business..with the customers and all.. so i left them with my no. and left with a heavy heart too.
a month later.. due to spring cleaning they found the earring and contacted me..


1st. met with xian.. we went to ha ra kim.. authentic korean restaurant..
we have deliciously smooth cold noodles and soft, gooey spicy rice cakes... with plum wine and 7up... very full we were..
and we headed down to ps to get my rubik cube...
then she had fruits while we talked big time again..

3rd..met with angie and dith..bought pressie for shamu..

5th.. lunch with cyn and layhong and cyn's cute fren ..

6th-yesterday had a sweet and bombastic bday celebration with mu..owl dith anne auyong... new york new york fried mars bar bratswurst sausage wrapped in bacon and cheese and fries sinful aglio penne and beef sandwich, swissbake tiramisu brandy cake..
bliss .. and then to suntec.. had a bit of kenny rogers cheesy pasta and some other salad.. mac cafe suntec... laugh laugh laughter.





cake-frank sinatra
We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
While Frank Sinatra sings Stormy Weather,
The flies and spiders get along together,
Cobwebs fall on an old skipping record.
Beyond the suns that guard this roof,
Beyond your flowers of flaming truths,
Beyond your latest ad campaigns,
An old man sits collecting stamps
In a room all filled with Chinese lamps.
He saves what others throw away.
He says that he'll be rich some day.

We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
While Frank Sinatra sings Stormy Weather,
The flies and spiders get along together,
Cobwebs fall on an old skipping record.

i like to blog about events so that i can revisit this blog and read back the entries and reminisce.

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people.Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others.You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others.You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

You Are a Dare Devil

For you, life is one big dare.And you're all in for any adventure.Others find you exciting, inspiring, and a bit intimidating.You're biggest challenge at this point is trying to top yourself!

You Are An Invisible Ex

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You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck.You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.You realize that working the system does get you further.You know who to defer to and who to control.When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

Your Love Number is 7

When you fall in love, you experience it to the fullest.You are a cheerful, joyful soul - and you attract people easily.While you fall for people quickly, you also fall out of love quickly.It takes a dynamic, exciting lover to keep your attention long term!

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is high.Sure you believe in love, but you know it doesn't come easily.You scoff at "love at first site" and "soumates."You rather take the real thing, as unglamorous as it is. Independence: Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.

face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'>Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.
It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Heart Is Red

You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart.Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person! Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense What you bring to relationships: Honesty

Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating

Maybe you're looking for love...But mostly you're looking for fun.You could get serious with the right person.For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

Your #1 Love Type: ENTJ

The Executive In love, you seek relationships that you can grow and learn from.For you, sex should always be exciting and experimental. Overall, you are bright, energetic, and helpful.However, you tend to be challenging and confrontational. Best matches: INTP and ISTP

Your #2 Love Type: ENTP

The Visionary In love, you are always trying to improve and grow your relationship.For you, sex should be a spontaneous adventure. Overall, you are magnetic, inspiring, and a charmer.However, you tend to get bored and want to change partners frequently. Best matches: INFJ and INTJ

Your #3 Love Type: ESTJ

The Guardian In love, you are energetic, dependable, and willing to give it your all.For you, sex is fun and physical - something you've cultivated a talent for. Overall, you are cheerful, stable, and committed.However, you tend to also be impatient, controlling, and (inadvertantly) insensitive. Best matches: ISTP and INTP

Your #4 Love Type: INTJ

The Scientist In love, you tend to be very private and withdrawn - even when things are going well.For you, sex is important in a happy relationship. Less important when things aren't going well. Overall, you are confident, intelligent, and serious about commitment.However, you tend to hold back and not show your emotions. Best matches: ENFP and ENTP

Your #5 Love Type: ESTP

The Doer In love, you are charming, and known for sweeping people off their feet.For you, sex is fun and a great way to be in the moment with someone. Overall, you are witty, generous, and flirty.However, you tend to ignore conflict and get bored with people easily. Best matches: ISFJ or ISTJ

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

You Are 90% Psychic

You are so very psychic.But you already predicted that, didn't you?You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others.You're very tapped into the world around you...Just make sure to use your powers for good!

yeah right. ;)

You Are A Chestnut Tree

You are a born diplomat with a well developed sense of justice.And even though you're impressive and intimidating, you're also fun to be around.You can be irritated easily, and you sometimes act superior.Nevertheless, you are sensitive of others feelings and very loyal.Sometimes you feel misunderstood and are fiercely close to those who know you best.

Your Birthdate: May 21

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone. Your strength: Your thirst for adventure Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures Your power color: Hot pink Your power symbol: Figure eight Your power month: March

get outta my head..
get outta my life..
get outta me..

last monday i went to jurong island for work.. how troublesome.. the exchanging of passes.. the crazy long journey from clementi to jurong island.. the lack of greenery in jurong island... the lack of smiles as well.. its a depressing place.. i wun ever work in such environment ever.. regardless of the paycheck... there's too much at stake. lol

the slackiest so far! there werent any sign-ups and we talked from 10 till 430.. with naps in between.. the mee rebus was delicious and damn cheap tho(1.50 like primary sch canteen).. at least there is something to look forward to for these workers.. lol
we exchanged horror bgr stories.. and i realise we had a wise r/s guru here.. tho he doesnt resemble an expert.. excuse me but yah...

then we went back.. along the way we had to declare our items.. and the guy in charge is a cute malay gay.. hes really nice..he sympathised with us.. how sweet of him..given someone else.. ...
yet another one to reinforce my perception-all gays are nice guys..

tues- i worked at this place with interesting architecture..
its at simei and it has depressing surroundings.. cuz each individual cubicle has walls that are like 2 metres high and its pretty obvious if you walk over to your colleagues desk.. its damn quiet and super chit-chat-unfrenly.. thank goodness there's email. and i cannot imagine office sex here.

then we all, being bored.. played bingo..
once a while we gotta fence off buzzing silly customers with scathing sacarstic stinging remarks cuz they cannot get the deals their way.. how horrid.

after the roadshow is over.. we were driven back to the mrt by our in-charge.. then along the way i met this guy from this insurance company.. (NOT ANOTHER ONE) you noe those irritants who try to convince you to deposit money with them.. and then make you think it is a good investment.. sorry but im a poor student who feels like she needs to eat beans everyday to make ends meet..peas for some days for some variety.. you've got the wrong person mate.
but i notice the change in their approach.. i was rather taken aback.. y? cuz the questionaire was irrelevant! it said nothing about investing, mentioned nothing about savings and the like. it made me give hp no.(a must.. thats how those pests contact you) and just ask me simply where do i usually go to do my xmas shopping..what a soft sweet unagressive approach. unlike the past.. whereby this guy tried to stop us.. then i said im not interested and i walked past and he said in an angry tone :'' y did you not even give me a chance!'' which turned me off.. and then afer the questionaire they simply shook hands and i walked off.. the next day they called me to schedule for an appointment.. i just said ive got no time... and asked them what will it be about can we just do it over the phone..then the dumb girl retorted : '' im not sure.. cuz im contacting you via third party and i dunno what's on his agenda''
what a smart choice of words.
of course i told her str8 i am not interested and have a good day!


wednesday- met up with xian.. had a full meal at this indonesian restaurant on the third floor of lucky plaza.. hm.. i missed the avocado drink..it looks like chocolate with plenty of mint cream and i guess thats how i was attracted to it in the first place..lol.. grilled chicken was delicious and the sour soup was a so-so.. it was not sour but sweet.. i think its a printing error on the menu. lol and we had chips.. i still think the indian chips i had at lagnaa restaurant is the best! :)

orchard road was flooded.. with people and rain.
and then we head to mango, zara and guess for some light shopping.. duncha think guess has a lotta mama-san clothes?
somehow i tink the line is blurred between
i bought a pair of skinny jeans.. it felt good.. this is my 2nd pair of mango jeans.. still, i dream of the day when i can just buy 5 pairs of G-star jeans in one go and not feel anything.

after that we had a little ice cream at the roadside.. sat at those stoned seats along orchard road..
and watch the crowd.. tonnes of ppl took pictures of the decorations.. some were singaporeans.. man.. these ppl sure have no life.. whats so great about the simple decor.. i can so imagine them being old and telling their grandchildren the days of their lives.. and showing them pictures of decorations in orchard road every year and their grandchildren stifling their yawns.

and we talked and talked and headed home after that ..

thursday i had my bout of ktv with a bunch of jc mates..
happy I..N...G !
and lunch in pizza hut.. mm..

and dinner in mosburger and lotsa shopping in marina..
suddenly i missed those boliao jc days where we were all lazy and crapped our way thru the days..
i missed the camaderie!
those sweet darlings helped me with my shopping dilemma..

friday i went ard town again..

saturday i celebrated christmas potluck with a bunch of sweeties and exchanged pressies as well.. somehow i feel very xin fu!lol almond longan, green curry, japanese crispy chicken, baked wasabi prawns, pasta...yummy! very satisfying.. beats any renown fare..its heartwarming..lol im so emo!!

its the simplest things that makes me happy. cliche but true.

and i realise something as the day passed.
giving gives the giver a greater joy than receiving..

after tat i headed to town to meet peipei
i bought a pair of GOLD shoes in far east and we had korean dinner in food republic.. the rice cakes were delicious and fantabulously spicy.. omg heavenly!

kimchi kimchi! kimchi kimchi!


sunday i had a christmas lunch with my family.. and lotsa red wine.. mm....


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Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, baby, night and day
I'm fed up,
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up, I don't know what to do
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done, I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me 'cause I'll find my way
You'll wake up one day, but it'll be too late
Every little thing, every little thing
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, waiting for your call
I'm fed up,
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly
So slowly
So, I don't know what to do
Every little thing, every little thing
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, waiting for your call
I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you(fade out)

If I were a painter
I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We'd be there together
Just like we used to be
Underneath the swirling skies for all to see
And I'm dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would take me there
But only ...If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you....

im feeling emo emo emo emo.. so much rain these days it din help..