idiocyncracy

hearts.

2007-01-18T04:00:00.000-08:00

new year new hope new resolutions.

just a thought,
sometimes.. the feelings you have for many old frens that you have.. are plainly just redundant...
ive come to learn that somehow.. people may not place the same value on you as you hve on them....
they come and go and make empty promises.. and funny thing is ..i did not even compel them to do so..they come to me and tell me so..
il rather they dun make the promises at all.. cuz that will at least save me the heartache..
and ive come to learn that there is no need to hold onto the people who dun really care.. rather...just be happy that you have known them and they have played a happy part in your life..
whatever comes..let it come.. whatever that goes..let it go..
just treasure the moments you have with that fren
for whichever new people you meet...
give them care and help whoever who needs help.. that alone is good enuff...

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this year may il be 22..
i have so many goals and aspirations..
so much to work upon..
so many big dreams..
my only problem and obstacle is my impatience..
so many things to look forward to...
so much of the world to absorb and explore..
one day i wana work in new york..
the things that i wanna do may be impossible..
but even if it breaks me il do it.
for life is not worth living if you dun try..

i wun blog anymore.. i have thought of deleting it.. but i decided to leave it so i can come back someday and laugh at the silly things i wrote ..lol

beholden to nothing and no one...
il go full speed ahead towards the things i want...

cheers all
:)

Why he sucks in his stomach when a good-looking woman walks by

2007-01-13T20:48:00.000-08:00

this is really funny!!!

''Because it's easier than doing the 500 sit-ups a day it would take to undo the years of beer and nachos that have turned our once rigid six-packs into distended down pillows. Men aren't used to our physical attributes (or lack thereof) being readily discernible: We can spot 36Ds at 50 paces, yet our privates are safely stowed in our chinos, our Olive Oyl biceps shrouded in our sleeves. A pudgy stomach is tougher to hide. We could drink less and work out more often, but inhaling deeply and pretending we're buff is much more efficient.''

frank sinatra

2007-01-06T22:49:00.000-08:00

27th... had my foodie outing with pei pei- the undisputed chairman of gourmet club. im the undisputed ceo of gourmet club. as well as guest of honour anne tan.
we went into the heartlands of singapore.. ang mo kio! the huge s11 kopitiam. we had a two plates of 5 bucks delicious orjian.. penang laksa..one huge mutton murtabak.. one rojak and some desserts yummy yummy! plenty of laughs and plenty of dumb photos taken.. anne's bf and pei's sis joined us later and more laughs!

and then halfway thru i had a stomachache.. then i went over to jubilee and the toilets are.. horror upon horrors,locked!and i caught this security guard locking the mens..and he went down the escalator.. so i followed him..and i said ''excuse.. i needed to go to the toilet and i was wondering if you have the keys to the toilet.'' he said:'' WHO ARE YOU?'' (what a fucking dumb irrelevant qn) . taken aback, i said '' you dun noe me.. im just a passerby wanting to use the toilet'' (i almost wanna shoot a smart aleck ans..hi im president nathan and i command you to unlock the toilet door!) and then he just retorted me rudely and pointed in the direction of s11.. i refuse to give up the hunt for a proper toilet so i went to four seasons shopping mall..i asked this salegirl if she can give me the directions of a toilet in the mall and then this salesgirl pointed to the direction of s11. i almost fainted.. shit happens.

29th.. i met a long time no see fren..
her name is nurul... lol we went to this turkish cafe at far east.. anatoila.... i had beef wrap.. beefylicious.. and they had the funny teasing ice cream man there...
and then we went to starbucks near forum and had a good talk there..
i had toffeenut latte.. im not a great fan of lattes but it was a nice light airy drink perfect for long talks.. the evening was sweet and cool and windy.. i looked ard me and i see this group of restless teens with punk rock style and their ringleader had her leg propped up again a chair with a cigarette in hand, chin jutted up and all.. i tot they looked ridiculous. if you wanna be bad. dun look just. be. lol

after that it was walking again and we settled down at orange julius.. had a muscle peach. din feel like ive gained muscles after drinking it.. worse still.. it tastes like pineapple.

hm.. i heard alotta horrifying bgr true life experiences lately and im wondering... issit all worth it?

30th i met peiyuan..
we went to bishan to eat.. this certain cafe SUX BIG TIME. im never gg back there again!
the food was bad and the service was even worse.
everyone had to cut their own bread.. and there were a chain of tiny bad events..
all ard us.. the waitress was refilling the glasses of other ppl so close to us.. and totally ignored us, the food arrived and still no water.. i asked for some.. the waitress poured and SPILLED ON THE TABLE and my frens leg.. after a long pause she said a soft sorry and quickly moved away. noone came and wiped the table. how horrible. my fren had beef linguine. tastes like char siew. hence char siew mee. i had beef burger. beef had sauce that tastes suspiciously like char siew sauce. hence char siew bun. the bread was bad too. im never ever gg back there again.

went to have a tea at ya kun.. after that an ice cream at macs.. and we sat and talked for a very long time.. bumped in this girl i din like but we said hi. then i bumped into my manager of ocbc and she still looks as hot as ever despite being married and having kids and all.. damn beautiful she is!

31st- i went to collect my lost earring..
it was found! this is a case of rare honesty in sporeans.i lost a diamond earring in the cheers near national library a month ago.. i was rather distressed as it has great value.. sentimental value as well economic value.. so i searched thoroughly for it.. and this sales officer helped me.. she was really helpful..but the supervisor was rather irritated for i seemed to be disrupting business..with the customers and all.. so i left them with my no. and left with a heavy heart too.
a month later.. due to spring cleaning they found the earring and contacted me..

1st. met with xian.. we went to ha ra kim.. authentic korean restaurant..
we have deliciously smooth cold noodles and soft, gooey spicy rice cakes... with plum wine and 7up... very full we were..
and we headed down to ps to get my rubik cube...
then she had fruits while we talked big time again..

3rd..met with angie and dith..bought pressie for shamu..

5th.. lunch with cyn and layhong and cyn's cute fren ..

6th-yesterday had a sweet and bombastic bday celebration with mu..owl dith anne auyong... new york new york fried mars bar bratswurst sausage wrapped in bacon and cheese and fries sinful aglio penne and beef sandwich, swissbake tiramisu brandy cake..
bliss .. and then to suntec.. had a bit of kenny rogers cheesy pasta and some other salad.. mac cafe suntec... laugh laugh laughter.

cake-frank sinatra
We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
While Frank Sinatra sings Stormy Weather,
The flies and spiders get along together,
Cobwebs fall on an old skipping record.
Beyond the suns that guard this roof,
Beyond your flowers of flaming truths,
Beyond your latest ad campaigns,
An old man sits collecting stamps
In a room all filled with Chinese lamps.
He saves what others throw away.
He says that he'll be rich some day.

We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
We know of an ancient radiation
That haunts dismembered constellations,
A faintly glimmering radio station.
While Frank Sinatra sings Stormy Weather,
The flies and spiders get along together,
Cobwebs fall on an old skipping record.

2007-01-06T22:45:00.000-08:00

i like to blog about events so that i can revisit this blog and read back the entries and reminisce.

hm..

2007-01-06T12:23:00.000-08:00

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people.Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others.You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others.You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

yeah right

2007-01-06T12:15:00.000-08:00

You Are a Dare Devil

For you, life is one big dare.And you're all in for any adventure.Others find you exciting, inspiring, and a bit intimidating.You're biggest challenge at this point is trying to top yourself!

How Daring Are You?

so true

2007-01-06T12:10:00.000-08:00

You Are An Invisible Ex

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You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an ex
You prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behind
As they say, indifference is the opposite of love!

What Type of Ex Are You?

absolutely strange

2007-01-06T12:06:00.000-08:00

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.
You are a realist when it comes to luck.You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...But you do your best to try to make your own luck.
You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.You realize that working the system does get you further.You know who to defer to and who to control.When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

all too familiar

2007-01-06T12:03:00.000-08:00

Your Love Number is 7

When you fall in love, you experience it to the fullest.You are a cheerful, joyful soul - and you attract people easily.While you fall for people quickly, you also fall out of love quickly.It takes a dynamic, exciting lover to keep your attention long term!

What Is Your Love Number?

2007-01-06T11:53:00.000-08:00

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is medium.You probably have had a couple significant loves.And you may have even had your heart broken.But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.
Dominance:
Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is high.Sure you believe in love, but you know it doesn't come easily.You scoff at "love at first site" and "soumates."You rather take the real thing, as unglamorous as it is.
Independence:
Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

2007-01-06T11:50:00.000-08:00

face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'>Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.
It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

2007-01-06T11:47:00.000-08:00

Your Heart Is Red

You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart.Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person!
Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy
Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing
Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense
What you bring to relationships: Honesty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

2007-01-06T11:44:00.000-08:00

Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating

Maybe you're looking for love...But mostly you're looking for fun.You could get serious with the right person.For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

even more worrying lol

2007-01-06T11:39:00.000-08:00

Your #1 Love Type: ENTJ

The Executive
In love, you seek relationships that you can grow and learn from.For you, sex should always be exciting and experimental.
Overall, you are bright, energetic, and helpful.However, you tend to be challenging and confrontational.
Best matches: INTP and ISTP

Your #2 Love Type: ENTP

The Visionary
In love, you are always trying to improve and grow your relationship.For you, sex should be a spontaneous adventure.
Overall, you are magnetic, inspiring, and a charmer.However, you tend to get bored and want to change partners frequently.
Best matches: INFJ and INTJ

Your #3 Love Type: ESTJ

The Guardian
In love, you are energetic, dependable, and willing to give it your all.For you, sex is fun and physical - something you've cultivated a talent for.
Overall, you are cheerful, stable, and committed.However, you tend to also be impatient, controlling, and (inadvertantly) insensitive.
Best matches: ISTP and INTP

Your #4 Love Type: INTJ

The Scientist
In love, you tend to be very private and withdrawn - even when things are going well.For you, sex is important in a happy relationship. Less important when things aren't going well.
Overall, you are confident, intelligent, and serious about commitment.However, you tend to hold back and not show your emotions.
Best matches: ENFP and ENTP

Your #5 Love Type: ESTP

The Doer
In love, you are charming, and known for sweeping people off their feet.For you, sex is fun and a great way to be in the moment with someone.
Overall, you are witty, generous, and flirty.However, you tend to ignore conflict and get bored with people easily.
Best matches: ISFJ or ISTJ

What's" Your Love Type?

this is getting worrrying! haha

2007-01-06T11:31:00.001-08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

all these tests are fun!

2007-01-06T11:31:00.000-08:00

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

2007-01-06T11:26:00.000-08:00

You Are 90% Psychic

You are so very psychic.But you already predicted that, didn't you?You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others.You're very tapped into the world around you...Just make sure to use your powers for good!

Are You Psychic?

yeah right. ;)

2007-01-06T11:16:00.000-08:00

You Are A Chestnut Tree

You are a born diplomat with a well developed sense of justice.And even though you're impressive and intimidating, you're also fun to be around.You can be irritated easily, and you sometimes act superior.Nevertheless, you are sensitive of others feelings and very loyal.Sometimes you feel misunderstood and are fiercely close to those who know you best.

What's" Your Celtic Horoscope?

2007-01-06T11:05:00.000-08:00

Your Birthdate: May 21

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.
Your strength: Your thirst for adventure
Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures
Your power color: Hot pink
Your power symbol: Figure eight
Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

sigh

2006-12-29T09:57:00.000-08:00

get outta my head..
get outta my life..
get outta me..

la vie en rose

2006-12-25T02:50:00.000-08:00

last monday i went to jurong island for work.. how troublesome.. the exchanging of passes.. the crazy long journey from clementi to jurong island.. the lack of greenery in jurong island... the lack of smiles as well.. its a depressing place.. i wun ever work in such environment ever.. regardless of the paycheck... there's too much at stake. lol

the slackiest so far! there werent any sign-ups and we talked from 10 till 430.. with naps in between.. the mee rebus was delicious and damn cheap tho(1.50 like primary sch canteen).. at least there is something to look forward to for these workers.. lol
we exchanged horror bgr stories.. and i realise we had a wise r/s guru here.. tho he doesnt resemble an expert.. excuse me but yah...

then we went back.. along the way we had to declare our items.. and the guy in charge is a cute malay gay.. hes really nice..he sympathised with us.. how sweet of him..given someone else.. ...
yet another one to reinforce my perception-all gays are nice guys..

tues- i worked at this place with interesting architecture..
its at simei and it has depressing surroundings.. cuz each individual cubicle has walls that are like 2 metres high and its pretty obvious if you walk over to your colleagues desk.. its damn quiet and super chit-chat-unfrenly.. thank goodness there's email. and i cannot imagine office sex here.

then we all, being bored.. played bingo..
once a while we gotta fence off buzzing silly customers with scathing sacarstic stinging remarks cuz they cannot get the deals their way.. how horrid.

after the roadshow is over.. we were driven back to the mrt by our in-charge.. then along the way i met this guy from this insurance company.. (NOT ANOTHER ONE) you noe those irritants who try to convince you to deposit money with them.. and then make you think it is a good investment.. sorry but im a poor student who feels like she needs to eat beans everyday to make ends meet..peas for some days for some variety.. you've got the wrong person mate.
but i notice the change in their approach.. i was rather taken aback.. y? cuz the questionaire was irrelevant! it said nothing about investing, mentioned nothing about savings and the like. it made me give hp no.(a must.. thats how those pests contact you) and just ask me simply where do i usually go to do my xmas shopping..what a soft sweet unagressive approach. unlike the past.. whereby this guy tried to stop us.. then i said im not interested and i walked past and he said in an angry tone :'' y did you not even give me a chance!'' which turned me off.. and then afer the questionaire they simply shook hands and i walked off.. the next day they called me to schedule for an appointment.. i just said ive got no time... and asked them what will it be about can we just do it over the phone..then the dumb girl retorted : '' im not sure.. cuz im contacting you via third party and i dunno what's on his agenda''
what a smart choice of words.
of course i told her str8 i am not interested and have a good day!

wednesday- met up with xian.. had a full meal at this indonesian restaurant on the third floor of lucky plaza.. hm.. i missed the avocado drink..it looks like chocolate with plenty of mint cream and i guess thats how i was attracted to it in the first place..lol.. grilled chicken was delicious and the sour soup was a so-so.. it was not sour but sweet.. i think its a printing error on the menu. lol and we had chips.. i still think the indian chips i had at lagnaa restaurant is the best! :)

orchard road was flooded.. with people and rain.
and then we head to mango, zara and guess for some light shopping.. duncha think guess has a lotta mama-san clothes?
somehow i tink the line is blurred between
i bought a pair of skinny jeans.. it felt good.. this is my 2nd pair of mango jeans.. still, i dream of the day when i can just buy 5 pairs of G-star jeans in one go and not feel anything.

after that we had a little ice cream at the roadside.. sat at those stoned seats along orchard road..
and watch the crowd.. tonnes of ppl took pictures of the decorations.. some were singaporeans.. man.. these ppl sure have no life.. whats so great about the simple decor.. i can so imagine them being old and telling their grandchildren the days of their lives.. and showing them pictures of decorations in orchard road every year and their grandchildren stifling their yawns.

and we talked and talked and headed home after that ..

thursday i had my bout of ktv with a bunch of jc mates..
happy I..N...G !
and lunch in pizza hut.. mm..

and dinner in mosburger and lotsa shopping in marina..
suddenly i missed those boliao jc days where we were all lazy and crapped our way thru the days..
i missed the camaderie!
those sweet darlings helped me with my shopping dilemma..

friday i went ard town again..

saturday i celebrated christmas potluck with a bunch of sweeties and exchanged pressies as well.. somehow i feel very xin fu!lol almond longan, green curry, japanese crispy chicken, baked wasabi prawns, pasta...yummy! very satisfying.. beats any renown fare..its heartwarming..lol im so emo!!

its the simplest things that makes me happy. cliche but true.

and i realise something as the day passed.
giving gives the giver a greater joy than receiving..

after tat i headed to town to meet peipei
i bought a pair of GOLD shoes in far east and we had korean dinner in food republic.. the rice cakes were delicious and fantabulously spicy.. omg heavenly!

kimchi kimchi! kimchi kimchi!

sunday i had a christmas lunch with my family.. and lotsa red wine.. mm....

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Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, baby, night and day
I'm fed up,
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up, I don't know what to do
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done, I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me 'cause I'll find my way
You'll wake up one day, but it'll be too late
Every little thing, every little thing
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, waiting for your call
I'm fed up,
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly
So slowly
So, I don't know what to do
Every little thing, every little thing
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call, waiting for your call
I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you(fade out)

norah jones' if i were a painter

2006-12-20T08:54:00.000-08:00

If I were a painter
I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We'd be there together
Just like we used to be
Underneath the swirling skies for all to see
And I'm dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would take me there
But only ...If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you....

rain rain go away!

2006-12-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

im feeling emo emo emo emo.. so much rain these days it din help..

my composition

2006-12-17T08:39:00.000-08:00

broken broken broken we all are
broken dolls and messed up hearts
silly games and violet lies

promise me promise you
promises we made
conjured feelings
make-up pictures
when will it all stop?

the spirals of tragedies
oh, foolish pride
come to me darling
make it all stop.

pictures..glimpses.. flashes

2006-12-17T08:14:00.000-08:00

i can still remember my first birthday present. Its a box of colour paints.. i got it when i was four. i remember the acrid smell when i opened the wrapper.. and i can vaguely recall how puzzled i was when i uncovered the present... how funny it looked. metal tubes..all the different colours.. i tot it was food.. lol so typical of me..

well.. turned out that all these various tubes of ''food'' were lotsa fun!

i painted and painted and painted.. and drew and drew and drew...so that i can paint and paint and paint...

paint, i did..

paint.. on the floor, i did that too..

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when i was a little girl.. i made my mommy drew pictures of ppl for me..

until she got tired...lol

after all these years of fights..

when i recall these stuffs..
that even when my heart was torn and broken and leaden and shredded and numbed and stoned..

somehow..
when i tink of her.. something pulls at my heartstrings..

random2

2006-12-16T20:24:00.000-08:00

i dunno what is it about sentosa.. but for every stage of the journey we seemed to be always rushing for the bus..

lol

everytime we reached a particular part we din get to wait for the bus.. we just reached there.. the bus is moving off..far far away i waved to the uncle ...he stopped.. we got on..it was comical

if only this works for SBS buses.

promise me you'll remember

2006-12-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

thurs -worked at LTA.. at suntec tower 3... the most comfortable setting with the most enjoyable colleague.. CINDY! lol.. coincentally crapping in the toilet together, creating verbal crap and physical crap.. omgosh.. damn funny.. it wouldnt be nice to reproduce the same crap here ;) ''PLU'' ''ugly hands association''

she mentioned something with which i dunno somehow why sorta stuck in my head
''it will take more than tonnes of coffee to get me depressed...''

and we keep 'koping' free ice creams from citibank at the roadshow.. i had 4 cornetto ice cream cones.. all different flavours.. this amount pales in comparison to the other roadshow promoters.. omgosh desserts has this cheery effect.. everything is free there.. even kachang puteh.. they had the typical company drinks machine in the pantry.. japanese green tea expresso.. you name it.. we brew it.. that explains why i got a slight tunmmy upset.. lol

after that i headed down to sentosa siloso beach resort rooftop garden suite for kimbo's party..
the gorgeous rooftop jacuzzi ..i remember kim's tiara dropped into the pool and super mickey saved the day.. gropping abt..lol and the lovely rattan chairs.. the perfect chill out setting with beloved babes.. its lovely with you guys.. so absolutely fucking lovely with you all .. with the best finger food ard.. i had so much raspberry and mango cheesecake also known as creamy yoghurt.. and the fondue and the cheese dip the cheese dip.. wooo! the fondue chocolate was like we had at aaron's.. it was cosy.. the so called mini soccer match lol heads only.. so easily entertained lol.. the retreat to the toilet .. everyone hada good time.. jas and me squatting down.. everyone so pink cept me lol.. im a yeellloow yellowww dirty fellow... and i met fellow piece of shit jonana! the worlds so small

the way home with angela..
it was deja vu...
same fren.. same journey..
but its different somehow..
and kinda sad.. i dunno how to explain this sadness..
like saltiness grazing the tip of a glass of margarita

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btw ive got a qn..
why are there so many Blacks/ african americans in Little India?

And randomly scare the hell outta asians by striking up a conversation outta nowhere.

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PROMISE ME YOU'LL REMEMBER
Harry Connick Jr.

Promise me you'll remember
This love together today
We may not have tomorrow
It's not for us to say
Fate isn't kind to lovers
It break the hardest heart
Promise me you'll remember
How good we are
Why do I find the sadness
Under your sweetest kiss
Destiny seems to whisper
It won't stay like this

When wherever we're together
I feel time standing still
I only know I love you
And I always will
If we should lose each other
Somewhere inside the dark
Promise me you'll remember
How good we are

Time isn't kind to lovers
It breaks the hardest heart
Promise me you'll remember
How good we are

the smallest things the simplest pleasures the days i treasure

2006-12-13T08:18:00.000-08:00

little india! has this charming lil restaurant called lagnaa.. its got nice ambience and its tucked away in a lil corner...away from the maddening crowds.. mango and i we sit on the floor indian style haha and had.. tasty tender turkey.. curry fish.. cheese naan and gira(not sure if thats the way its spelled) rice.. creamy choco fondue with the sweetest oranges and banana and marshmellows..and i had my jacob's creek shiraz.. yum! and we signed on the tiles of the restaurant.. very cozy dinner w a precious gf.. these are the little moments i treasure.

its good to be open minded but not soo open minded that your brains fall out.

2006-12-12T07:52:00.000-08:00

from the movie Les Poupees Russes

Xavier: When I think about all the girls I've known or desired, they're like a bunch of Russian dolls. We spend our lives playing the game, dying to know who'll be the last. The teeny-tiny one, hidden inside all the others. You can't get to her right away. You will have to follow the progression. You have to open them, one by one, wondering, "Is she the last?"

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watched alotta films lately..

and musicals on tee vee

on moonlight bay
the professional.

pls catch them...they are pretty good!

As he begins 2 raise his voice u lower urs n grant him one last choice Drive til u lose e road Or break w e ones u've followed

2006-12-12T06:58:00.000-08:00

so much happened... so many things and my head is reeling.. im so lacking of sleep im surprised im still walking talking and singing...

went to ben's bd party.. it was pretty much a chill out affair.. rather cosy and nice.. too bad my class were busy singing in the ktv in his condo that we missed out the tossing-of-Ben-n-gf to pool!

gorgeous nice bedroom with a such a top of the world view.. and such great facilities!! chill-out chill ouuuut... with such skyline views...reminds me of the Donald trump properties.. i dream of this scene chilling out in my room with wine in glass in my hand and looking out of my window pondering about my last billion that i made recently..

omg and i went wala wala last last week .. i still tink wine is my thing.. no more vodkas(with the exception of vodka redbull), rum or cocktails. had half a pizza... i swear im on my way to fatty bom bom land.. and im chilling out with moses lim soon.
the music is really good and i tink i have a crush on the singer..
ive always dreamed of dating a rockstar with the gruffiest voice and the darkest eyes and the gentlest manner and devil-may-care attitude with a harley davidson.

holland v is such a beautiful place...

i watched The Godfather Trilogy recently.. its the best! so intense so hot! marlon brando's cold bloodedness.. omg sent chills down my spine.. give me my al pacino and marlon brando anytime! anytime! spirits and cigar and guns! everything is done so swift and yet everyone has such a lazy manner.. suddenly the mafia seemed so cool to me.

i finally tried the wanton mee at sunshine plaza!!! we wanted to eat the custard buns again but it was sold out by early afternoon..ever since the dim sum place got on tv.. the dim sum place was never the same again!

so we were dissapointed because we din get to eat our custard bun buns and decided to have our cravings satisfied in this dessert place near bugis shopping centre! YUM.. we bought 4 flavours.. water chestnut paste with egg.. hong kong style vanilla ice cream topped with fat tasty red beans.. refreshing mango paste which is not too sweet (and thats the best part) and some other desssert.. so the four of us.. rotated the bowls constantly and the waitress walked past with a weird look on her face haha.. but its really good... this way we dun get sick since we had variety.. haha.. ard the corner theres also nice kway chap and laksa..

speaking of food.. today.. sharon was telling me that in smu they have a gourmet club whereby every weekend they try out different eateries.. omg.. i tink im a suitable candidate.. i love food so much im such a foodie.. unknowingly i eat while i tok on the fone.. i only realised when my frens remarked that how come im always eating in my phone conversations..

last friday i was at clarke quay.. and so wanted to eat at cafe iguana.. but it was so damn crowded .. we got on the waiting list and waited at the bridge and watched the boats pass by...some mad scottish drunken guy came up to us.. and asked us if we wanna be frens..yick.
we waited so long so madly starved...we went to check with them again they said they called us bbut no one answered and then the manager got my no. down.. and we waited for so long we went riverside indonesian restaurant instead.. yummy seafood fried rice! and then on our way back we passed by cafe iguana. i had a pissed look on my face of coz and they called us back, gave us a table and gave us free generous bowl of warm chips and salsa hot dip..cafe iguana is pretty known for their margaritas.. but i got tequila shots instead.. the crowd is hot too.. i feel so out there cuz i went from sch ... they had young expatriates.. hot singaporean girls and guys... and beautiful ang moh model like girls.. i feel inadequate in dressing even tho its just a frigging CAFE! hello!!!
just 2 shots in and i was reeling.. lol.. damn i gotta be careful.. taxi-ed again.. oh i love clarke quay..

boat quay as well.. so many nice eateries along raffles place and tanjong pagar and toward chinatown.. all the shophouses so charming!!

i have yet to go check attica out.. !

yesterday after work in LTA building at Little India on my way home this old man came up to me and my colleague and asked my if ive got change.. i shook my head no.. passed by him and guess wat..he followed us! OMG! we sorta walked and ran.. luckily he din follow us into the mrt! crazy shit!
little india's sure got some weird peeps!

just now after work i went out to have a food feast at amk with pei, bianca, susu and pei's sis.. woo.. just a huge place of fish and chips and the best orh laut in singapore .. it wasnt too salty and it was VERY CRISPY!!! oh and sour plum lime juice..

my oh my.. Amen to all that! chomp chomp was overhyped...

dinner was a hilarious affair with bianca and susu and pei cuz of the craziest '' intellectual'' shit we come up with! and some lame jokes... come to me if you wanna hear some wahahaha!

im thirsty for some drinks and i have this urge to dance like mad.. maybe at sim bash soon.. i cant wait.. gona club with some old frens cum new clubbing kakis..

its been awhile since i lose myself ..

grrr...

:)

2006-12-03T00:06:00.000-08:00

You Are Vanilla Ice Cream

Your personality is anything but "vanilla"You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new.You go well with anyone and fit into any situation.
You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

things ppl do

2006-11-26T03:25:00.000-08:00

if someone tells you to turn up in P.E attire for salsa classes, would you? apparently someone i knew, did. that was very dumb and very funny!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCwKbUVyHLY
this is a must see.. its HILARIOUS!

2006-11-25T22:23:00.000-08:00

met up with peiyuan recently.. had a good catch up complete with good food.. or rather lotsa food.. billy bombers 2 all star burgers and a plate of hot nachos topped with cheese.. theres goes my waist!

and then i had a date complete with lotsa food again.. sashimi selection, soft shell crab, croquette and ice cream.. there goes my figure!

chicken rice with carrot cake. kopi.. huge mushroom cheese sandwich with salad and chips hot chocolate..

does any one noe ngee ann poly has a bar? how cool is that? at 17..you have a bar in sch...imagine what it will be like if all junior colleges have one too.. a place to chill when youre really stressed.
on the other hand.. it may not be such a good idea.. imagine mr lum drunk and giving lectures..

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all these restrictions all these problems.. all these hurdles and obstacles i have to go thru.. when will it all be over.. sigh..

i must persevere . i must be strong.

like the words from the bible

'' you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. And you have forgotten the word of encouragement that addresses you as sons.''

'' we are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair, persecuted , but not abandoned;struck down but not destroyed.''

sometimes.. life is easy for some ... and difficult for others.. when it is difficult for you.. work twice as hard.. there is no point in moping ard or sitting ard doing nothing.. thinking that it is so unfair on you.. it is pointless.. if you dun like what you have.. change it.. or work towards what you want..

it may take me years to achieve what i want. but i will get there.. believe it i will. no matter what sacrifices it may take..
:)

you gotta be

2006-11-13T19:44:00.000-08:00

i love this song!

You Gotta Be Lyrics
Listen as your day unfolds,
challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted,
don't be shamed to cry
You gotta be..

Chourous:
You gotta be bad,
you gotta be bold,
you gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard,
you gotta be tough,
you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool,
you gotta be calm,
you gotta stay together.

All I know, all I know
Love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles
in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view

My oh my,
hey hey hey

Chourous
Time asks no questions,
it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning,
can't stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face
Remember

Listen as your day unfolds,
challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
my oh my,hey hey hey....

Chorous (2x)
Got to be bold.
Got to be bad
Got to be wise.
Not ever sad
Got to be hard.
Not too, too hard
All I know is,
love will save the day
Chourous (repeat till fade)

cool

2006-11-10T08:51:00.000-08:00

i read shimin's blog and i got influenced..

this test is REALLY TRUE!!

quizbox

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
T
he type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

tough enough

2006-11-10T08:30:00.000-08:00

just watched this movie at the cathay..

called tough enuff..

very beautiful beautiful show..
its tugs at ur heartstrings...
as usual...lotsa qns..

been watching alotta arthouse films lately..
im pretty hooked..

the dangerous lives of altar boys..
goodbye lenin..

but schindler's list made me cry and cry and cry haha..

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i wanna drown myself in my sorrows..
this life full of sorrow..
but i know i know i must try must try to..
softly softly dive into the dreams of tomorrow..

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we ate at sunshine plaza dim sum yummy!
milky custard bun
chicken lor mai kai
of course i must have siew mai
char siew cheong fun
tender chicken porridge..

salivate

i wanna try eat the wan ton mee next time!

haha

mm.... feeling alil blissful now

i had a lil wine and now i say hi
to my land of pillows and bolsters hahaha

goodnite one and all.
goodnite.

no one knows

2006-11-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

No One Knows
by Green Day

Why should my fun have to end?
For me it's only the beginning
I see my friends begin to age
A short countdown to what end
Call me irresponsible
Call me habitual
But when you think of me
Do you fill your head with schemes
Better think again
Cause no one knows
I don't want to cause no harm
But sometimes my actions hurt
Is there something I should find
To make plans for forever
Call me irresponsible
Call me habitual
But when you think of me
Do you fill your head with schemes
Better think again
Cause no one knows
Call me irresponsible
Call me habitual
But when you think of me
Do you fill your head with schemes
Better think again
Cause no one knows
Does it seem like all your memories fade
You soak up knowledge to fill the space
And still my answer remains...
I don't know

buttons

2006-11-03T21:02:00.000-08:00

somedays.. i have a sudden impulse to cut my hair into a mohawk and turn into a punk, smoke 20 cigs day try all the drugs in the world and drink flaming lamborghinis/absinthe, race cars

no there is nothing wrong with me and neither am i crazy.. i just wonder whats its like to go off into the deep end.. my youth is ending ... somehow with age.. with age comes sensibility, responsibility.. somehow... i cannot just run ard yelling on top of my voice ''mad fuck mad fuck mad fuck ! '' anymore..

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this blog is growing old and nasty and mouldy.. i aint got ammo to load it..

but im back with a vengence..

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lol..

hari raya at naz's was weird..
the food is good.. as usual..
her parents cook smashing good food...

i must ask what rice is that..

and i went to her house days ago for a tok cok girl tok girl gossip session.
her room is absolutely wild!
persian looking carpet..
beautiful leopard print sofa..
blur ceiling with handpainted prints
stars studded ceiling..
KING size bed! (you can spread urself endlessly on the bed)
LOTSA mirrors (like hanteng said elephant can see their full reflection there)
and now a new addition TV..
what she lacks is a refrigerator

its a home within a home! (oohhh ahhhh )

somehow i dunno why but this song kept running thru my head when i was at her house.

Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Champagne kisses hold me in your lap of luxury
I only want to fly first class desires, you're my limousine
So elegant the way we ride, our passion it just multiplies
There's platinum lightning in the sky
Look I'm livin' like a queen
This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live baby
We're luxurious like Egyptian cotton
We're so rich in love we're rollin' in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin so sparkly
Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Sugar, honey, sexy baby
When we touch it turns to gold
Sensitive and delicate kinda like a tuberose
You know you are my treasure chest
It's pure perfection when we kiss andYou're my Mr.. I'm your Miss
Gonna be until we're old
This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live baby
We're luxurious like Egyptian cotton
Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back
Cha-ching cha-ching we're loaded and we're not gonna blow it
cha-ching cha-ching we're hooked up with the love cause we grow it
cha-ching cha-ching we got hydroponic love and we're smokin'
cha-ching cha-ching we burn it you and I, we are so lit
We're so rich in love were rollin' in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin' so sparkly
Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back

-luxurious by gwen stefani..

okay... it felt like a setting for that song.

then hari raya was..

interesting..
i met a classmate i have not seen since sec four..
shes in smu now.. on that day itself she can only hang ard awhile and then rush off to sch for a project.. GOING BACK TO SCHOOL ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY????!!!!!!

try to imagine a bunch of ppl thrown together.. all strangers.. and the only common thing we all have is that we all noe naz

there is the sec sch fren(who is me), the online fren, the pri sch fren, the camp fren, the hair fren, the gym fren, the fren's fren.

who all come in a different hours...
outta boredom we socialize.
throw in some magic shows and russell peters and a caucasian girl as well
there was this guy who was really into magic and he was used to walk ard streets of spore.. entertainin ppl b4 army wisked him away to the land of green and boredom..
he did some tricks for us and her caucasian smart prodigy niece too sophisticated nowadays.
even she was stumped.

kinda reminded me of mel and no it was not a good feeling.

all these loser guys who went crazy after a breakup..tsk.. dun try too hard puhleeze it turns ppl off contrary what you think.

sometimes i tink my world is beautiful and sweet and sunshiney.
sometimes i tink not.. with all the accounts from my frens and from my experiences...
and sometimes i say fuck you all.
and i wanna be the superhero to save all these poor souls.
i dream of being in smallville.

lol.

hung ard with px recently...

great talk at ngee ann city that wide wide space there..

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keep eating recently..
i duno why i crave food nowadays..
every trip to the kopitiam is like a quest. with the reward as MORE food.
even without traveling ard places i still manage to be a foodie.
let me give you an example.

''morning teabreak in sch i had apple bread, veggie pie and donut, then lunch i had botak jones in clementi..sasauge with bacon fat and cheese tonnes of fries and coleslaw.. then i had another teabreak in sch tea with waffles then later on at a meeting for cca i had curry puff and springroll then for dinner i shared with 3 other frens satay, murtabak, sambal kway teow, cheese and mushroom prata and cheese prata... haha.. foodie me yes i am! haha.. coudn walk str8 after that.. ''

thank god i have swimming and picked up tennis again recently...
every saturday at yishun safra..
nice elongated pool..

im definitely taking up salsa come this hols.
no one is stopping me.

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sian one job is not enuff.

whats the fastest easiest way to earn money?

ok dun think dirty . im too morally upright for that. think of all the desperate uncles. YUCK.
il rather kill myself.

btw i ve got a fren's fren who is working as a social escort she gets 25 bucks an hour not to mention all the clothes he buy for her when they shop and all the meals.

and she say she they did not do it.
shes just paid to be his companion.

you believe?
i dun.

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ktv ktv ktv...
botak jones again after that...

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had a tok cok session at ngee ann poly after sch..
had a pina colada at their alumni house.. whoa for 10 bucks it has high alcoholic content.
not bad..
and yet we cant drink inside cuz theres thisbunch of old people singing ktv and they go offkey countless times.
not to mention they are yelling on top of their voices.
so we chilled outside.
but then the food there is not bad too.. beef hor fun.. very tasty.
very full.
then i went back to sch to study! lol

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more updates soon.. gotta rush

current earworm : buttons by pussycatdolls.

cloudy day

2006-11-01T10:36:00.000-08:00

i have everything. more than what i can wish for. frens and family and sch and work.

why, do i still feel.. this empty void and this deep bottomless tear in my heart?

If i were a painter

2006-10-22T23:03:00.000-07:00

If i were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you

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2006-10-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

cannot live without you but cannot live with you. irritating.

short update.

2006-10-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

what have i been up to..

botak jones is good.. value for money food. i loveee haha!
bukit timah serves good food too.. hawker fare is sinful but just too good!

tennis with my mates..
long time since i played and i have almost forgotten y i love it so much..

gonna join singing competition in sch.

visited my ricky dog at my frens house and he's grown !! darn cute! i love him to bits.. he's in good hands..

mahjong sessions...

gonna start japanese lessons soon..

:)

learn

2006-09-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

sometimes... you dun noe.. if you make the right decisions or not..
sometimes people act irrationally due to pressure..when there is pressure or a dateline.. your mind gets clouded and you cant tink rationally.. and perhaps when it is all over.. suddenly you realise it may not be the right choice.. at the moment ...it seemed like such a good idea.somehow..im not satisfied with myself for the way i handled certain issues... i guess what i need to do from now on is to first learn how to handle my emotions and be patient with myself.. so when there is a crisis.. i will not go thru twice as many emotional hurdles...
its hard living with regrets..
but one must to forgive oneself :)

closure

2006-09-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

now that the problem is solved.. my mind is clear and im glad.. i tink ive grown much wiser. and im glad for the people ard me. one must never be to easy and trust too easily.

nostalgic

2006-09-27T02:24:00.000-07:00

did i mention that schindler's list is a good movie? made me cry buckets as well and inspiring enuff to make me wanna leave a legacy...

think

2006-09-16T00:51:00.000-07:00

went out for ktv yesterday... good to see that bunch..

and yet again.. we were reminded again and again to stop singing haha..

jap food that din taste like jap food but it was tasty and reaaallie cheap..

i learnt a whole new lot of chinese songs ... haha

on the way home with zheyan..

we broached on the topic of love and letting go.. one of the universal issues that woman and man all over the world pondered and continue to ponder about, analysed, and felt.

he said he does not understand women ... how its so hard to woo a girl and giving her what she wants without him asking..

well.. there is no right or wrong when it comes to wooing someone you fancy i guess.. for every one is different.. some girls like plenty of attention.. some are repulsed by it and some just.. well.. wanna have fun! haha

its very rare that both parties fall in love with each other at the same time..

there is always an imbalance.. but the balance of the scales can also shift ..at the start and during the relationship...

whether there are results or not.. i guess the most important thing is that you have tried your best ..that's what matters.. so you dun look back with regrets...

:)

turbulent

2006-09-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

fast and furious...

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went ard suntec to look at royce chocolates as a bday present for a fren..

met up with old fren Dominic..

we went to look at the chocs...walked quite alot due to roadblocks for imf.. we had to circle ard the whole place quite a number of times b4 we reach suntec.. how annoying...

went to play pool..

fun sia.. haha
new addiction..
i have never noen pool to be this fun.. :)

photo.

2006-09-11T10:13:00.000-07:00

and you called.

it feels good to hear from you.

sunday..

i dun want these moments to end..

and now im listening to ryan cabrera song.. and im missing you..

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today i caught up with eugene..

hes still as humourous as ever..

food republic..

i bought 2 items..
one pretty shirt dress from forever 21 and a top from topshop *sounds tacky) haha

hm...retail is therapy!

i went home feeling better.. :)

meanings

2006-09-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

the things we talked about.. the things you tell me about.. so good.. i wud like to record the conversations.. lol

such parallels we are.

i wish it can last forever.

known you for one week only..

but 2 times- 6 hour talks.

farm.sheep. dogs. 4 horses.2 black 2 white. work hard for a moment then relaz in another country. travel ard the world. stewarding. dogs-husky, terrier. lions.we. brazilboy with iceland roots and jap model with european house. zoo. coffee. tennis. plop ping plop. ''i like talking to you''. websites of marine fish. beautiful starfish.set up ur own business. ginger dessert. migration.ur dog. ur contentment. ur enjoyment of fruits of labour. ur house. ur english teacher. ur prank on chinese calligraphy teacher.fu.draw architecture and surroundings and nature. counterstrike and basketball. my ij fiesta. ur songs-photo and poeme. ur nephew ''hello hello'' .chocolate to him. ur morning nourishment- inspiring talkers. neurolinguistic programming. gay fren gay confession. middle child syndrome. modeling and not taking jean paul gaultier stuffs. make-up in front of press audience then crowds. catwalk 250. catwalk teaching and how one guy walk like he's shopping in orchard road. ''how can one be so skinny!''. ur patience when i state my point. dun wanna die with regrets.to spend quality time with the ppl who meant to you the most. for you only have that much energy. we will live till 80 due to technology. strawberry fondue, lychee martini. dun drink. dun smoke. tennistennis. ur new song. fast is hope. slow is sad. disasters and hide under table.earthquake. carry parachute.. we float down and say hi. you and i both. you and i like to say i like to trynew things. insurance. or stewarding. ur aunt. your dad and tough periods. 60 dollar bag that looks good. 100000 a month.some cities are nice,kl is chaotic. travelling-denmark, england. butchers earn more than accountants. tell realghost stories. bday once at sentosa. wana meet ghost. cycle past jap cemetary. sister in england. younger sis st nicks hc overseas.middle child and independence. breakfast after cycling. wanna go trip. amzing other fren who is nus student, wife, son, childcare centre, build rapport. are humans freak of nature. why are we so advanced in development when there is no cause for it. me not toking sense. electromagnetic impressions made by men in sites with violent histories. english expert.love english. waste of youth. i understand what you say. spontaneity. middle class getting poorer. humans are batteries. recharge and rechargeable and charger. animation want. im good at analogies. i reply in 5 hours. can run to your house. walk to serangoon gardens. you are brave. when youre sad.. listen to sad songs and cry it all out so i feel better and i dun keep it inside. jack of all trades master of none. jump from jetty 10 m high. bungee jumping. plans to wakeboard and basic diving. scared of being in love with power and money. surround yourself with the ppl of the same mindset. ''im surprised you understand what i say''. i think you think more than me. ''very good very good'' humans are so abdominable that even ghosts are nothing-harmless. we both say ''fear of the unknown'' smart girl. ure brave. snow white lions. kfc infront of lions and licking lips. what you doing in sept 11. steve irwin. to leave behind an impression and mark. to be remembered favourably.try everything,when your old, you only remembered the things that you never tried than the things you you failed in after trying, live a life of no regrets. foriegn friends. ure agnostic. you sang ktv and ''its my life, ''.my art in japan. my sesame street and your samurai .

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last tuesday. i went to chill in tcc in raffles place with shuling. very cold....haha.. and cute waitress.. nice potato wedges with lotsa cheese. oreo mocha.

later on we head on to nydc to satisfy our craving for cheesecake. i ate solid gold.. the thick cheesecake and we tokked..

nearby us.. 2 girls shared a salad.. i compared her choice of food and my choice of food. hm.. il be miserable with the salad.
haha

one of the girls looked real scary. she had nice features but eyes too huge for her face and they look slightly out of place and abit too much out. and she seems bitcy. when shuling was toking about how she cannot slim down no matter what, the girl looked over and had a nasty looking smile on her face. see this is what salad does to you! you become starved and pinched and you dun get contented because you lack nourishment of happy foods like cheese and chocolate. haha i call them happy foods because they make you happy when you eat them.
lol

she confessed to me about her liking for this guy who did not fit in her criteria at all. strange eh? how love works.

i mean sometimes.. the ones you end up with is totally different from your preferences. and you wonder how it is that you fell in love with him. its unexplainable. and that's why we call it love.

how we all pin after the ones we cant have. we ponder about the ones who fancy us.

when you love someone. suddenly your world revolves ard him and everything else does not matter anymore. how everything about him is curiously interesting. all the things he likes.. no matter how absurd you will tink it is cute. its endless fun with that person and you just wanna noe more and more abt the person..its wonderful discovery.

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last wednesday dinner with my jc
classmates was good. VERY GOOD food. yummiest steam boat buffet. im definitely going back there. :)

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im craving for zouk.

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2006-09-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

this is the song you sent to me..

and i wud like to particularly highlight this 3 lines.

you were my life
you were my faith
you gave me hope everyday.

cancel away the ''were'' and ''gave'' and replace it with ''are'' and ''give''.
:)

grr2

2006-09-08T05:47:00.000-07:00

My goal tomorrow: memorise every single thing the seniors say tomorrow. Observe with coolness. Serve with coolness.
Kick their asses.

grr

2006-09-07T04:57:00.000-07:00

i fucking hate my work.

addition.

2006-09-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

actually i still have one more thing i wanna do.

work very very short term in zouk..lol.

direction

2006-09-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

list of goals i wanna achieve this year..

1)do social work.. i wanna help kids and troubled teenagers.

2)excel in studies. i wanna see how well i can do.. all my life ive always been putting at most, 50% effort.. lets see what i can achieve with 80% effort..(i did not put 100% because it is impossible that you put in 100 % effort for studying..we are all human arent we? )

3)go on more foodie trips

4) save enuff money to go on short trips

5) re-learn tennis

6)learn to eat mushrooms.

list of things i wanna do this year

1)im back into the clubbing scene! slack off it for a while cuz i was too tired and feelin too old.. but after last friday.. the dancing devil in me is surfacing again..i get a rush when i groove! i still havent check out attica!

2) explore famous chill-out places... (wala wala? )

3) finish up seinfeld

4)try out various wines..

5)learn how to make cheesecakes and black forest cakes.. (okay, i noe im kinda late.. )

6) swim once a week at least (now that ive got more time in my hands)

7) arthouse films

hm.. my list of wanna-dos is more than my must-dos..
i seem to take leisure more seriously than work..
*sheepish grin*

sing a song of life

2006-09-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

and there goes ocbc..

i finished my time at ocbc on the 30th.
had a bang of a time b4 i went for there were some silly office antics..

it was bittersweet..
i dislike working but im gonna miss everything else there...

miss the vibrant coloured office... i seriously doubt im ever gonna see any office as beautifully decorated as this one..

miss the habit of grumbling about asinine customers

miss the camaderie of my colleagues

miss the food ard raffles place (the ridiculously cheap golden shoe food center and its tissue prata, china square fish dumpling noodles, deliciously clad TCC, curry chicken noodles with addictive gravy at banquet in arcade shoppin center, chicken rice at maxwell, prawn noodles along the route to far east square, hong lim char kway teow, fishermans wharf, famous beef noodles along chulia street, thai chilli restaurant..

miss the quiet sundays where we will all talk abt random stuff and laugh at all the silly things

miss doing silly stuff like stealing ben and jerry's from the fridge and playing pranks on eric

miss poking fun at peeps

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its been rather overwhelming for me recently

had an ongoing freelance project going on..
was very sick a couple of days back..
along with work..
outings..
as well as being a ''counselor''

thought i was gona be overstretched..

but i must say i gotta be thankful cuz life has been smooth sailing recently

i passed my exams! yay...! i really thought il fail all and indeed i still marvel at how i manage to pass..

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yesterday was pei's bday..

went to wine network in dempsey road for a cosy celebration..
everyone beautifully dressed, good food, good wine, fun company and the wine was enuff to make you high..german sausage yum!

had pei dunk alot of the delicious wine.. and she was entertaining :P
along with bianca the party babe

and the rest of us the fruit gang lol

with half a striptease by 2 guys.. .. hilarious and dumb

pei and her crazy utterings and pretty red dress

happy birthday pei!

zouk after that

zouk is still the best..
great crowd, great music.. (friday night-sigh!)
save for a few idiots..

dance the night away

retreat at four..

good it was good.

blessings

2006-08-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

wed- 23rd

i finally got to treat esther recently for a favour.... its a good talk good food good company..its a nice place.. BUT lousy service.. but i dun care.. im gg back there again for the food is really good..
its New York New York.. at city link.. you guys must try it.. it has good american fare.. with the same price range as nydc, cafe cartel, billy bombers, kenny rogers and the like.. and 10 times tastier in my opinion..
esther had bratwurst sausages wrapped with cheese and bacon and chips.. and i had penne in lovely creamy mushhroom sauce and roast chicken.. its sounds ordinary in description but it was sumptious... we also had fried mars bar.. have you all heard of the fried mars bar at chippys in far east? it pales in comparison to this..
everything was done so well in big servings .. the chicken wasnt too dry, the mars bar was well melted and juicy in the middle..

amidst all the catching up and laughter.. i cudn help noticing the gay couple beside us.. i dun wanna be prejudiced but its hard not to notice them.. they shared food... they looked at each other intimately it gave me the creeps.. its almost like if there weren't anyone ard..they wud have grabbed each other 's hands... their eys speak the language of love.. and they leaned close to each other thruout the meal.. *shudder* the funny thing is ... they dun look like the typical gays.. neither do they behave like one( the way they walk etc.)... closet gays..

thurs-24th..

had work.. lunch with colleague at food muesuem in raffles place.. famous beef hor fun.. very heavily doused in beef sause but very good.. later on.. before i left work.. i felt kinda guilty..even tho i dunno why beacause i wasnt at fault.. he was working the same shift with me but i left on time while he left later cuz he haven't finish his work.. yet he was so good natured about it.. i mean he din feel pissed or anything.. gotta learn to be more like him... more giving more generous..

then i met up with a very important fruit! MANGO!
okok.. not fruit ... a good fren of mine who was a gf of a guy who is a close fren of my ex..
great company and good food.. spaggedies! yum...
i had chicken penne pasta.. and the chicken was well-seasoned..
she had black pepper soft shell crab arrabiata... heavenly!
and i decorated her birthday book b4 we left the place..
she had this birthday book to let all her frens decorate... which she is not gonna open and only do so on her birthday.. how charming..
and she's leavig for australia in a weeks time for a whole long month to celebrate her birthday with her bf and catch a THIRTY minute fireworks! imagine! 30 minutes fireworks!!!!! we singaporeans had 10 minutes fireworks and we already feel blessed.. i love the way fireworks make me feell.. for that 10 minutes its like im transported to fairyland and my worries and troubles vanished ...
and we toked about how we wanna travel ard the world..
and catch more foreign films...

friday-25th..

got to meet up darling pei!!!! wooo...
went to New York New York again! haha
now i had those sausages... and delicious waffles with ice cream and chocolate...the waffles are SO CRISPY..yummy... and the sausages are fat and juicy.. and pei had lovely mudpie as well.. it was warm and not too sweet... heavenly.. suppose to meet up with simon to meet supplier.. but too bad cant.. so i head off to NAFA with pei...she went to continue her proj.. while i pop in there for fun.. saw the ever energised Bianca! pluck off wisdom tooth and the same night she still and go out! pei fu pei fu..

went off to icon ..has a shop with gorgeous bags!! the guy there actually graduated from ntu with accounting.. yet another graduate doing veering towards another career path totally not what he intended n the first place.. makes me wonder what goes on in the minds of these ppl...

then we walked around to bugis village.. quite a lot of crapp there too..
then walked ard towards arab street... funny place..with all kinds of funny shops..
i feel like trying the egyptian restaurant there...

hm...

contented...

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work is getting more hectic nowadays.. but im blessed with supportive and caring colleagues so in no way did i feel stressed

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just a random thought...

mango asked me a question that stuck in my mind for a time....

'' are you happy with your life?''

and i replied..

''very happy''

without hesitation..
im surprised myself by saying that..also very surprised at the quickness i replied..

with all that i have been thru for the past few years.. im glad i faced it and deal with it..
and God has been good to me..

and im grateful..

:)

changes

2006-08-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

last saturday.. watched those fireworks.. mu angie and i..

it was breath-taking and awesomely beautiful..
and too short!

lol...

like life isn't it? the best moments of life are like fireworks..heartbreakingly beautiful, too rare, too short, too fast over...

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5 of my colleagues left the workplace.. i miss them terribly..

for i have grown attached to them over time..

4 came in place of them..
while they are incredibly nice ppl..

and i love meeting new ppl and making new friends.. its never like the former batch.. the pioneer batch of us having fun..

still the new ppl are fun.. and we spent alotta time crapping and luffing ard...

soon im leaving this comfortable workplace.. and the sweet carefree lifestyle that im fond of..

in 2 weeks time..

and its a brave hey there hello to citibank.

update

2006-08-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

been a busy week.. and i have kinda temporily abandoned my blog for a while...

now, what have I been up to the past few days..

friday-4th august.. fell sick.. stomach flu.. so i took all kinds of self prescribed medication... so much so i felt intoxicated.. stuffed with chinese medication and western medication.. and it felt so awful at one point i was so weak i can't even change my position in bed... and i cannot lift myself up..tot i was gonna die.. and i missed out on ktv outing and bianca's bday at shangri-la... miserable manz.. lol

sat-5th augustfelt much better and i even went to work.. lol.. weekends at ocbc centre is great.. cuz we got to relax with less authority around..

mon-7th
went swimming with debi and shuling in the morning at yio chu kang swimming pool.. very empty.. which is great.. otherwise it will feel like an obstacle course.. days when there are kids on swimming courses are the worse... they are noisy and they are oblivious to other beings.. and im afriad of accidentally kicking the kids.. so i cant relax.. managed to swim 20 laps.. damn proud of myself.. lol

then went home for a lunch of fish and chips.. then head out again to watch this thriller movie HARD CANDY with peiling..
Its a thought-provoking show.. if you have the time, do watch it.Its intense, powerful and disturbing. There are various social issues involved and it is rather controversial in a sense. However, not everyone can stomach it as it has strong content, but its a fantastic movie. I wouldn't think twice in catching it again.

after that we shopped ard in topshop and fcuk..
bought a bag in Fcuk.. lately i realised im starting to notice bags.. strange but.. more often than not.. i used to spend all my money on food and clothing.. now im starting to fall in love with bags and shoes.. how peculiar .. cuz most girls like to splurge on bags and shoes.. im a late-developer. lol

then went off to shuling's house to play mahjong..

with shuhui kok chuan and debi.. time sped..thats how it is with mahjong..

played till 10 reach home at 1130..

tues 8 aug-
dragged myself up to play tennis with Jinghui and two other of her friends.. both also from SIM, Adriel and Lionel..

at first tot i wasnt gonna to.. cuz my stomach problem came back..

luckily it behaved..
played 2 hours b4 i went off for work..

9th aug

i worked nite shift and had a prolonged dinner at tcc..lol.. great ambience.. shitty food.. haha
eng huat's pizza baguette had a strong indian flavour. there were chips at the side. we speculated that those were actually bought from little india..lol

11 aug-
went for breakfast buffet at delifrance..
the buffet was so-so..

had a chockful of pastries..
now im guilty and i feel like swimming 50 laps to stave off my guilt..

lol

then i watched Adam's Apples with Dith..

It a black comedy.. but it touches on serious issues..
Loved it..

At one point in the movie i was so overwhelmed i cried..

it was heartwarming and somehow it stirs something inside of you..
incredible movie.. i cant describe it appropriately in words..

its a pity it wasn't marketed as frequently as other commercialised films..

makes all the movies currently screened seem shallow..

after that we went HMV and i bought two vcds.. 2 movies that ive been wanting to watch for the longest time..

City of God and Schindler's list..
damn sooper happy cuz it was on sale.. lol
7.95 each..

very satisfied .. :)

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2006-08-06T00:14:00.000-07:00

i hate superficiality.The older i grow the more i seem to be stuck to it. and as much as i hate it i need to live with it and even use it simply for survival.

nameless

2006-08-01T05:23:00.000-07:00

hmm.. sunday 30th

went for another bout of ktv.. very fun.. am inspired to learn chinese songs wahahaha.. english songs are still my kinda thing but the mtvs simply kill my drive to sing..the mtvs of english songs are always so nuttily stewpid cupid and they always portray ugly duckling models and worse still,boring videos of boring places like the bird park or zoo or local shopping malls.. bores me to tears.

so im gonna start checking out fish leong(what kinda english name is that?), stephanie sun and jolin tsai and ah mei and elva siao and s.h.e(act cute)..

so far i only noe.. stephanie's wo bu ai, yan shen..
coco lee's ben nu ren and some jay chou songs..

lol

and again we had to be sent out by the manager..

lol

oh.. and i caught the rock gig..it was a last minute decision... very cute dude.. he asked me to go see/tok to him after the gig... i didn't..

too shy.. heheh

2006-07-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

sian.. the older you grow.. the more ugliness you see outta people.. the less you trust... how tiring, how weary it is to steer towards success in this world.. its almost like.. you have to be totally alone so you can survive.. how awful..

random

2006-07-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

Been a long time since I last ktv-ed. The last time was with Jolene and
Tian Fang. We went for a bout of singing after school. I still remembered how Jolene screamed her lungs out for this song ‘Bad Boy’ by Ah mei. And I recall how we got lots of attention by the people walking past our rooms *chuckle*

21st- I went to have a singing session in Kbox after work with Shuling, Jane, Kok Chuan, Zheyan, Debi and Li Jin.
It was too short a singing session! I haven't even warmed up! Only got to belt out 4 tunes.. And the service was really lousy. First they inform us in the next round of orders for drinks we had 3 drinks left when we should have four. Then they forgot Li Jin’s order for milo. Then they informed us at 930 that it is our last song when it should be 10 pm. *boils*
We sang till 10.05 with repeated reminders from the staff that we should go. Guess the manager buay Ta han and plead with us to go. LOL.
Before we left, we asked the manager to take a photo for us. LOL

***

Dominic called. Been sometime since I heard from him. Its nice to hear from him. He’s one of those friends that I can have a decent conversation with, peppered with witticisms and we always poke fun at people. Opps. Lol
Oh but I was embarrassed when he spotted me on lime magazine for the Black eyed peas concert. It was so long ago!! And that magazine was in star bucks. I wish someone would burn it or something. I dun want anyone to know I was associated with melvin. How embarrassing.
Some guys in army can be so neat. They will pull their bed sheets till its wrinkle free. They will actually dulan when you if so much as to rest just your palm on the bed sheet. How peculiar.
National day is coming up. Notice the commandos and the navy guys are the best looking. Ever seen a fat commando?

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G contacted me again recently. It was strange. He asked me if I found a bf yet . I just said im single. Then he said I was choosy.And I said no, im not leh. And he said he’s single too. (I dunno if that is a hint to me) And I diverted the track of conversation. I said that singles have more fun….
I dunno what he meant by all that.. But I have ceased to bother about him. It seemed like he wanted me to miss him but I don’t.There was a time when I thought I did but now I don’t anymore.
He wasn’t the only one who asked me why I was single. And criticise me for being choosy.

Eric did too. He said my standards are too high.

I don’ t think so. My conditions are few and easy.

I just haven’t met the right one. And I’m patient. If I cannot find the one, I am never gonna commit. No point wasting your life away with someone whom you stay with just for the sake of experiencing couple hood.
After my last relationship, I ’ve learnt to take it easy and go out on dates and have good clean, fun. After all, its more fun hanging out with different people than to stick to one alone. Besides, I feel it is very important to get to know someone well and deep enough to commit.
Perhaps I have been too independent for so long I have not known how to compromise with others. Or perhaps I haven found someone worth enough to give up everything else for.

All I know is that one must live life to the fullest and do not hesitate to try everything for you only live life once.

Now, I don’t believe in complaining how life is unfair and how the world is against you and all that depression shit. I believe that when you try hard enough, it is good enough.Worse still some are already condemning themselves when they haven’t even tried. Most of the time, if you believe strongly, you will get what you want. Most of the time, people don’t realise how lucky or how fortunate they are and it makes me sick to hear them complain bitterly and get anal about stupid lil things that they don't have. To put it simply, they are just a bunch of lazy bums.

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I’m not gona eat at hans anymore.
I have lost faith in them. Yesterday I was resisting my mind, telling myself to give it a try again. The moment my share arrived, Kok chuan said it was miserable. And I agreed. What’s worse, it tasted horrible. And it was expensive. I convinced myself to be content with the fact that im paying for the ambience but it didn’t work.
I’m so not gonna eat at hans anymore.

We broke record yesterday. There were no calls. Eng huat, Kok chuan and I just sat there and tok cok.
At the same time, I silently envied Eng Huat’s porcelain baby smooth skin. LOL
Btw, ive noticed that sometimes we discover things about ourselves we never knew through talking extensively with others.

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I love Gustave Flaubert’s works.
The prose is beautiful. And very true.

‘To be sure it is possible to live, and even die, without once asked oneself what life and death are.

But for the man who watches the leaves trembling in the wind’s breath, the rivers meandering through the meadows, life twisting and turning and swirling through things, men living, doing good and evil, the sea rolling its waves and the sky with its expanse of lights, and who asks himself why these leaves are there why the water flows, why life itself is such a terrible torrent plunging towards the boundless ocean of death in which it will lose itself, why men walk about, labour like ants, why the tempest, why the sky so pure and the earth so foul-these questions lead to a darkness from which there is no way out.

And doubt comes afterwards; it is.. Something that cannot be said but felt. Man then is like that traveller lost amid the sands searching everywhere for a route to lead him to the oasis but seeing only the dessert.

Doubt is life- action, words, nature, death. Doubt is in it all.

Doubt is death for souls; it is a leprosy that seizes on worn-out races; it is an illness that comes from knowledge and leads to madness.

Madness is the doubt of reason.
Perhaps it is reason.
Who can prove it one way or the other?

There are poets whose souls are filled with frangrance and flowers, who regard life as the daybreak of heaven, and others who are fille with nothing but darkness, bitterness and anger- there are painters who see everything in blur, others who see it all in yellow or all in black. Each of us has a prism through which we observe the world, happy is the one who can find cheerful colours and merry things in it.-
There are men who see the world nothing other than a title to be gained, or women, or the bank, a fine name, a destiny: follies.-
I know some who can see only railways, markets, or livestock. Some discern in it a sublime plan, others an obscene farce.
And the former would ask you what after all is the obscene? A difficult question to answer, like all questions.
I would just as much like to give the geometrical definition of a fine pair of boots or a beautiful woman, two things of great importance.
The people who see our globe as a big or small heap of mud are singular characters and difficult to pin down.
….

You boast of being free, of being able to do what you call good and evil, doubtless so as to be condemned all the more quickly, for what good could you ever fo? Is there a single one of your gestures which is not stimulated by pride or calculated out of slef-interest?
You, free!- From your birth onwards you are subject to all the infirmities of your father, you receive with life the seed of all your vices, of your very stupidity, of all that will make you judge the world, yourself, and all that surrounds you, in accordance with that term of comparison, that measure you carry within yourself. You are born with a narow spirit, with a ready made ideas, or ideas that will be ready made for you, about good and evil.You will be told that one must love one’s father and look after him in his old age, you will do both and yet you didn’t need anyone to teach you to do it, did you? It is an innate virtue like the need to eat. While on the other side of the mountain wher you were born your brother will be taught to kill his father when he is old, and he will kill him, for that, he thinks, is natural,and it qwas not necessary for anyone to teach him to do it. You will be brought up by people people who tell you that you must be very careful not to love carnally your sister or your mother, while you are descended like everyone from an incest, for the first man and the first woman, they and their children, were brothers and sisters; while that sun sets on other peoples who regard incest as a virtue and parricide as a duty. Are you already free in the principles by which you will govern your behaviour, is it you who presides over your upbringing, is it you who chose to be born with a character happy or sad, consumptive or robust, gentle or savage, moral or depraved?
…

You say you are free and every day you act at the very behest of a thousand things, you see a woman and you love her, you die of love for her: are you free to quieten that pulsing blood, to calm that burning head, to repress your heart, to pacify that ardour that devours you? Are you free of your thought? A thousand chains hold you back, a thousand stimuli drive you on, a thousand obstacles bring you to a halt. You see a man for the first time, one of his features shock you, and all your lifelong you feel aversion for this affection if he had not had such a big nose. - You have a poor digestion and treat with brutality the person you would otherwise have greeted with benevolence. And from all these facts flow or are linked just as unavoidable other series of facts, whence others derive in turn.

Are you the creator of your physical and moral constitution? No. You could be in full control of it only if you had fashioned and modeled it as you pleased.
You call yourself free because you have a soul- firstly it is you who made this discovery that you cannot even define; an intimate voice says yes- firstly you are lying: a voice tells you that you are weak and you feel within yourself an immerse void that you would like to fill with all the thongs you throw into it. Even if you thought you did have a soul, are you sure? Who told you? When having been torn apart by 2 opposing feelings, after a long period of hesitation and doubt, you incline towards one of the feelings, you believe you were the master of your choice. But to be master it would be necessary to have no inclination at all. Are you master enough to do good if a taste for evil has implanted itself in your heart, if you have been born with bad inclinations that have been fostered by your upbringing? And if you are virtuous, if you hold crime in horror, will you be able to do it? Are you free to do good or evil? Since it is the feeling for good that always controls you, you cannot do evil.
This battle to struggle between two inclinations, and if you do evil because it is because you are more depraved than virtuous and the stronger fever has gained the upper hand.
When two men fight, it is certain that the weaker, the less adroit, and the more supple- however long the struggle lasts there will always be one who is vanquished. The same goes for your inner nature:even when what you feel to be good wins, is this always a victory for justice? Is what you judge good the absolute, immutable, eternal good?
…’

by
Gustave Flaubert.
**

If I ever have a dog, I would like it to be a golden retriever. They are beautiful and majestic-looking dogs.

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Kok chuan said something that was very funny yesterday.

‘ Rachel looks like a transsexual’

He was referring to Rachel of the ‘eye for a guy’ fame. Lol
***

:)

2006-07-18T09:39:00.000-07:00

16th -- went nigel's place for bbq.. pretty good place to chill out btw.. very windy.. along with yumin , yvonne, esther, dewei, elton, bernard, nigel..

lotsa chicken wings and unevenly-burnt marshmellows..

i hada resist the urge to jump into the pool though..

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work was slack today as usual....... beginning to enjoy it.. cuz im paid and i get to do whatever i want with all the free time in the word....

as usual .. i find some problems with the workplace organisation.. its retarded..

well.. with every job i learnt some..

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Ive been walking ard the place testing new eateries.. lotsa hawker fare..

and we have discovered SUBWAY exists here !!

oh yes so i had my turkey melt and their COOKIES!
who wants to choose CHIPS when u can have SUBWAY COOKIES!!

double chocolate chip and m and m cookie.. oh my.. im addicted...

calvin got 3 cookies..

i tink im gonna b like that too..

buy cookies everyday to my workplace..

i am gonna be cookie monster!! *arhm arhm arhm*

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just came back 2 hours ago..

went to watch pirates of the carribean!!!!
it was gloriously engaging.. best show since the start of 2006...

2006-07-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

hm.. met up with mango lately.. oh yes her name is mango... and shes a fruit.. a very cute one.. non-edible.. lol interesting names ppl give themselves..

then had fun later at swensens with yumin, yvonne and yan xi.. coindentally their names all start with Ys. and a short ''dou feng'' in yumin's car.

well... nothing much this week except work.. which was really monotonous.. and lotsa slacking at work.. and lotsa giggling..

lotsa food exploring ard raffles place..
cuz we were bored with the food court nearby..
i din wan my tastebuds to die of unhappiness and boredom..
the problem with the nearby foodcourt is that.. they have many stalls and lil variety.. y is that so? they have 4 stalls that offer yu pian bee hoon. 4 stalls that offer nasi lemak, 4 stalls that sells roti prata, 4 stalls that offer chicken rice..
there is only so much we can take.

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swam 15 laps.. still feel..f a t

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lately.. i have come to accept the way things are.

i realize that in life.. one of the most difficult and the most important lessons in life is to let go.

your mistakes,your happiness, your troubles, your worries, your friends,your belongings

one of the things one must learn
is never to depend your personal well being on any of these things.. but rather, appreciate the moments and lessons learnt from interacting and possessing each.

its no good to hold on to any of these.. because..

if you do hold on to these things dearly..

they lose their value and lustre..

:)

2006-07-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

sat- 1st

went for work till 730pm..

then went to orchard mos burger with pei susu dith... i had my spicy mos cheeseburger again... pei dropped the bomb of a tomato into the unsuspecting bag..

walked ard and rushed to take the free shuttle bus to great world city and walked to zouk..

dith collected the free invites to zouk.. the brit poptart party

i love brit rock..
they played a bit of keane.. then we had electrico.. electrico was hhottt! theyre really good.. cute frontman... kinda reminded me of rob thomas of matchbox twenty.. especially the mob of hair.. im now a convert..

we room ard for some time..

poppy and fren nicole joined us for a while..

as well as dith's cute fren huimin..

went out to the back of grand corpthorne and chilled.. pei had a lil much to drink..

then we went back to zouk..

and thats went the party really started... the music was SO GOOD.. hot brit rock!!

danced madly..

drowned in the glorious music

awesome music..

however some joker sprayed some substance and most ppl left the dancefloor... it was damn stupid.. but most returned after a trip to the toilet..

the crowd on the dancefloor can be classified into 3 catergories.. one group watching football.. one group watching football and grooving and last group grooving. feels funny ahah

then we went out again to chill..

then went in to dance again..some rich tall kids joined the dancefloor.. freaking taiwanese china cheena goodlooking dudes and dudettes

went to chill again

then had some water and i had jia jia liang teh at a nearby kopitiam.. and then we went home at 3am...

very satisfied!..very fun!

i take back my words about how i cant stand clubbing..

i still love to dance!

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2th sat-

went for work in the afternoon.. afternoon shift is 130 to 1130pm..

had dinner at macs with zheyan and shuling..

had a giggly good time later on.. din had many calls..
it was constant non stop giggling

lol

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i pretty much enjoyed work nowadays..
10 more temp staff had joined us and we are a jolly good company of frends..

outta the 14 of us..
jane,debi,zheyan,me, shuhui and zi jia are from sim..

then eric, shuling, li jin are from nus

calvin and eng huat are from ntu..

we are a whole bunch of undergrads..
damn lotsa fun cuz we are from the same age group..

some times we dun get calls and we start doing crazy bo liao stuffs.. runing to the pantry..
play stupid games..
tok

and they are really nice..
when my password was disabled..eng huat and zheyan volunteered to help do my share of work...

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3th

met naz after work... she bought a huge bottle of alcohol.. 6 percent only but we finished the bottle.. along with oreos..

at boat quay..

and i started gg mad hehe..
i dropped my book along the bridge.. almost dropped it to the river..
lol

and started to whine.. naz told me i was hilarious..

i cant remember what was it i said..

then we took mrt home..

i dropped off at bishan to buy sometihing..
then i went to take the train to amk.. but due to my blur fuzzy state i stopped at yio chu kang.. damn! and took train back to amk..

when ure drunk.. u do stupid things..

lol

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2006-06-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

hm... been getting a few requests from employers to see my complete resume.. they have intentions to hire me for positions in finance and retail.. however i doubt these as stable proper jobs. There was one company who was interested in meeting me and perhaps offer me the position of a financial planner.. I was of course, taken aback. i mean i have not gotten my degree yet, i hardly excelled academically in these past few years, and i am gonna manage peoples' wealth? if i were a powerful investor, i would think twice before i entrust my mass wealth to a firm like you. A short visit to their website confirms my suspicions. It was an unprofessional-looking website. My english is not A grade either. However, impression counts and the webby of the firm was cannot make it lah! Their english was laughable and the prizes they were awarded were numerable but vaguely described. Im sorry but i shall not waste my precious youth and bright future on you guys. HOHO.

eurgh.. i was just thinking about my life. Im uncontented the way ive managed it.. i have many dreams i wanna pursue.. however given my constraints.. i may take twice as long as many other people to reach them. its hurts lah sometimes..

but now.. i believe that whatever you do, you have to be patient and be extremely determined so as to achieve a pre-set outcome. It takes ultimate sacrifices along the way and i hope i have the courage to do that.

some of my goals include:

studying overseas a period of time in my life. of course it will be great if it is new york university or london school of economics. im not happy with just getting couped up in singapore and not being challenged academically. Im not trully learning in the environment im in. i just utterly want to make up for the lack thereof academic pursuits in my mid schling life.

besides.. i wud love to taste another type of life and culture..

im tired of the myopic-ness of singaporeans.

what we have of the general population is the strong preoccupation with looks, money and status.
a shallow, rude, self-centered bunch who do not much appreciate the arts.
if you look deeper into these people, its just all hollow inside.

i dun wanna waste like that *shudders*

of course im not saying that in overseas, a better life we have there. but the fact is, down here, we have nothing to call our own?
if you tink deeply, what is there in this place to call our own?
we are so interfused with influences from other countries, the idea of us being creative from now is just laughable. we are so busy copying others we forgot the creation that we make is not wholly us. just take a look at channel 5 and 8. i hardly watch tv but the few times i watched i thought its all silly. the local programes somehow always manage to mimic foriegn top shows its a pain in the ass to watch. whats worse, it was a blatant copy so much so that you cringe just to watch it.

i give up on our local culture.

i want to taste the various riches and the rich histories of other countries many times before the end of my life. :)

to learn foreign language..

to learn drums and start on go karting.

to be able to work in an investment bank someday....

2006-06-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

well..
yesterday met up with xian.. and we were like gluttons!

we both had 1 plate stingray, 1 plate hokkien mee, 1 plate char kuay teow, 1 mug sugar cane each, and 20 sticks of satay at chomp chomp! yummy!it wasn't a complete feast though.. we lacked carrot cake and orjian! grr..

haha.. i love food. who doesnt anyway?

lotsa work today..
its awful manning the hotline like that.. its such a monotonous job.. im lucky its only for 2 months... any time more than that i tink im prepared to enter woodbridge in my early thirties...

theres hardly any time to socialize given the nature of the job...

are all jobs like that? if so.. i should think its frightening.. i mean.. its a great way to waste and rot ur life away here..

lol.

sleepy sleepy..this must be the shortest entry in my blog...
im feeling grumpy too..

goodnite all. *wink*

2006-06-26T10:19:00.000-07:00

oh yes... pretty long week i had.. i wunder if i have all the finger strength to blog this entry. nevertheless i shall try.. i shant bother about my grammer here..do pardon my english. lol

well i promised u all il blog some abt my job.. here goes..

i had 4 days of training and its been three days of being on the floor now... my superiors are pleasant and my colleagues are nice.. but rather cunning.. and the office is awfully gorgeously decorated...with world cup theme in mind.. its a very cheerful looking office...the clients i serve mostly don't give trouble and so far.. so good lol.

but.
its getting monotonous.. and its only one week?
lol

so if ure in raffles place please give poor bored sharon a lil visit and she will repay u with kindness, generousity and endless entertainment.

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23th

i met up with naz a couple of times recently.. its good catching up after so many months... i din realise how much in common we really had.. the deepest secrets we have and how similar our secrets are..

we had a nice malay dinner at one of those tiny malay coffeeshops near my workplace at raffles place... spicy yum yum..while choosing the dishes to go with our rice.. the waiter kept going ''wanna try our famous chicken wanna try our famous chicken'' in a sing song voice. so we had the ''famous'' chicken.. the chicken wasnt exactly superstar quality though..
the beef tasted better.. it has the makings of a celebrity...
we walked amongst those shophouses.. and passed by Desire.. my fren told me that the girls do bar top dancing there...
there another club there that night that was flooded with ang mo expatriates.. horrible bellied ruddy faced ang mos.. mostly looking rich and busy picking up asian girls... i wunder what singaporean girls see in them.. saw a waitress who looked like she's 14.. thats like underaged.. poor kid.. either shes looking for some cheap thrills or she's truly broke...

we sat alongside the river and had a long deep talk..

stupid bunch of kids were skae boarding abt...and i was trying not to note how close they are to my feet while they whizzed pass us.. we had half the mind to push them into the river..

its a lovely breezy place to have a talk..

and we saw this old couple taking a walk together..still holding hands...
i thought thats sweet and very, very rare..
and i remember a much older fren of my use to illustrate verbally the picture of the typical heartland singaporean couple..

the mom would go like, ''ah boy ah! come back! dun anyhow run here run there!''
the mom wud wear loose tshirts and have a lousy figure
and the dad would wear singlet and slippers
*shudder*

how unromantic, mundane and unglam. lol

we stayed there for sometime..

the next day, went swimming..
ya kun with naz again..
the silkyz barley they sell was interesting..they had like strips of beancurd in barley..note that its in strips ...

loitered ard toa payoh b4 i met up with mu and bought part of the pressie for dith

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the next day work again..was feeling rather drained.. had to handle lotsa calls..

it just wasnt my day.. luckily it had a beautiful ending lol

well..for starts, it was a sunday and all the kopitiam eateries were closed and i had to spend lunch at a fast food restaurant..

i hate fast food.. fast food is so bland.
and i hate the concept of it -fast food..cuz its fast and that seems to imply it was not well prepared..i like my food slower and better done up by veterans.

after work at 730.. i rushed off to diths bday party..
went down to bedok by mrt train..reached bedok by 825

the fucking bus service to east coast ends at 800 and i got on to a fucking taxi whereby the fucking taxi driver duno where the fucking hell is vjc..and dropped me off at a fucking isolated corner near vjc and my frens had to locate me.. seriously.. lousy taxi driver..
and my heels were cutting.. i had blisters and they bled...awful awful.. later on when i showered...wooooo..

lol

at the party...

all the marinated food was like yum! wine cake yum! we gave dith our glam presents haha

barcardi...

cam whore ard...

played the sparklers.. love it..

cosy gathering...

went home in taxi and confuse the taxi uncle...we had four destinations..

weiling came.. so rare that i see her..

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content...

huney

2006-06-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

yesterday, went out with dith

i miraculously squeeze in 2 shoe boxes and a small bag into my snake bag.. woohoo!

oh and many funny things happened

u wanna con someone to letting u ahead of the queue in the ladies...just keep smiling at them and talk to them in a foreign language and keep poking them in their backs.. cuz thats what happen to me.. shat.

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and some tourist tried to ask us directions... it was a cute korean.. and we shunned away from him cuz we thought he was a pamplet distributor...and when it dawned upon me that he looked more like a tourist.. i turned for a backward glance.. turns out that he, indeed, a tourist and he had a stunned expression on his face.. .its was an awesome, classic look..he was horrified with our rudeness i guess... but it was unintentional lol

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today i started work...

its a cheery nice place...

more updates soon
*wink*

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2006-06-17T09:32:00.000-07:00

alrighty im gg back to my world cup.

happy days are here again

2006-06-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

oh yes went out just now..

went to check out my workplace... and scanned ard for special eateries..hm.. its at raffles place..noe of any nice eateries there? i saw o briens.. but im hesitant.. i dun wanna spent half my money on expensive eateries!

satisfied my craving with cheesecake from big o. irish baileys creme cheesecake with vanilla choc chip ice cream.. hm.. i always feel high with desserts.. anyone who noe i gorgeous dessert places do tell me.. yummy yummy... plus we had calamari rings from chippys... best one ive tasted so far.. its fantastically looooong, lengthy and skinny .. its crispy too! lightly battered and freshly fried.. ooooh my tastebuds were pampered! pampered! *licks lips*

then we were ard marina's.. i got a bag from warehouse with my voucher.. and i reserved a pair of working shoes from U.R.S.. well.. my latest crave is shoeeeeeeeees!

wee..

laugh lots with dith and pei after wards.. lotsa funny craps.. to lame to repeat here haha! oh i suddenly miss clubbbing and im gonna start work soon...Mango called to ask me to go but i was already on my way home and im having a splitting headache...

somehow i still preferred solid gold cheesecake from nydc.. its rich!

ah.. i missed tien's live band performance! i must attend the 30 th one!

lala

2006-06-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

it occurred to me that if i added some blue and some stars to my dress.. and i wear it.. il be draping an american flag around me. SHAT.

oh darn.. now i want the dolce and gabbana gold phone. moto moto i love u!

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2006-06-15T19:25:00.001-07:00

hm...
what have i been up to this week..

The 10th, saturday saw me gg to aloha to attend ah baos birthday party.. met up with px and louis and pc.. very lively affair.. as birthdays always are.. its always very noisy and bustling with activity.. and i always noticed the host would be very very busy and frantic .. going ard in the mad rush to entertain everyone. Its all very funny and happy really. haha

our class settled at a table.. and initially, it was rather awkward.. someone would make a comment then another commented on the comment and then.. silence..pause.. then another boliao comment pops up.. and the cycle goes on.. lol so the time came, when everyone ran out of boliao comments we watched baoling and her family havoc.. its funny.. and someone bought a snake.. not bad, not bad.. entertaining sia

there are 5 baolings at the party.. i noticed they all looked alike... now which one is the one having her 21st?
lol

then more ppl from our class arrived.. more comments made.. this time there was more chemistry.. now thats more like it..
I noticed how much we have changed.. probably its coz i dun meet some very often.. some of us has mellowed... all of us grew up much..

2 groups we are divided when we left.. i was kinda quiet in the car though..tireed

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i missed pearlyn's bday party... cudn make it :(
i missed anne's too :(

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the 11th saw me gg for shamu's photoshoot..

we went for breakfast at mos burger.. as usual i had the spicy cheese mos.. ever since pei recommended it.. lol well, its one of the nicest fast food burger around.. macs and burger king ..tsk tsk.. their burgers are either dry or small or shrivelled..or a combination of all. Now, spicy cheese mos is unbelievably juicy, deliciously cheesy with the mysterious sause.. seductive burger.. always siren- calling me to eat it..

then we settled down somewhere in arab street, i tink, angie did my make-up...

many curious passer-bys...some aunty invaded our personal space and stared at me like I'm some museum exhibit.. how rude. At least, say something lah.. so I don't feel like a museum exhibit and not capable of speaking..

it rained.. and we cudn take much photos.. im not disappointed though..
then we went ard the area...i eat some at a coffeeshop.. I love those quirky old shophouses....old, jaded, scarred with use, colourful.. its all so charming.. and such a refreshing change from the usual sterile high-rise buildings with zilch personality..

i see the buzzing activity around the various shops..and i thought, if, all these are captured on film..it will be fantastic.. its the simple one glimpse, a rare flash of insight, a moment captured of another person's life. Its beautiful. I'm a dreamer.

Oh and how sweet of them to come down to celebrate me birthday.. i din noe and it was a pleasant surprise.. nice presents..

then we temporarily retired from photography and set off to bugis.. eat some dessert.. talked some..funny how well we gel together ... after long periods of absence.. :)

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and my little sis is asking me now what am im blogging abt.. issit abt her? then i said who cares abt you. ouch.. lol strong sisterhood...nah.. it isn't mean.. we both know each other too well to know i din mean it.. I love my lil sis.

my mom asked me to join newpaper face.. i looked at her, aghast. its like asking ronaldinho to join miss universe.

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been job hunting job hunting job hunting

so sick of sitting in front of the pc almost every morning and using one of my gmail accounts for job hunting..and sending out resumes... even though its a cut and paste process... its tedious and energy-draining.. and i had to entertain milllions of phone calls from employers and squeeze
out time for interviews..

and various job agenicies pissed me off... they are very self-centered.. disorganized and forgetful... some even called me to go down and have a meeting with them again when i just met them hours ago.. well they had my resume before the 1st meeting.. so, yeah ...thats how this can happen.

i chanced upon ''careless whisperer''! lol remember the guy who whispered throughout singapore idol one? lol he had me crying with laughter with that episode.. And there he was, beside me, meticulously filling out the form.. with an earnestness thats almost painful.. it was funny.. i wanted to strike a conversation with him and then i decided not.. cause i realise whatever conversation starters would be sarcastic and I do not think he wants to be reminded of his notorious fame. He was famous for not so positive reasons.. but i applaud his courage(this, i don't mean to be sarcastic).

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i noticed i like to use certain words more often.. one of this includes euphoria... someone asked me why i like using that word...it kept creeping up in my conversation thats why.. hm.. i dunno.. thats how i feel most of the time... euphoric..

hm.. *ponders*
well, I'm either deeply depressed and sucidal or in a state of euphoria.. serious. I'm an extreme kinda person. Thats what i call living life to the fullest. No point doing activities with a neutral stance. It won't be memorable.

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thanks peiyuan for recommending her job. very sweet of her...

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i got a job at OCBC bank. :)

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went out with pei pei the day b4 yesterday... i almost bumped into jasmine.. but she was walking too fast.. and i din noe what to say..after all, i always felt like im the one making the effort to keep in contact with her and sometimes i just wish she would initiate instead.. the worst is that she doesn't let me noe the reasons why she's busy or something. *shrug* I have exactly been guilt-free of ignoring some people so i guess u can call this karma.

I bought a candy cane dress!LOVE IT. its that kinda dress that can make you look slim even after u ate 10 dinners. HAHAHA! *triumphant look*

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what a long blog. blog blog.

gonna meet naz later! cant wait.. :)

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quoteworthy: I like life. It's something to do.- Ronnie Shakes

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:)